After that bad, bad weekend, I’ve had a rather good weekday. It was a good week despite the rush of typing out the exam papers. I guess, I work better under pressure. I mean, I had a whole week to start on the papers but only 2 days before the submission date, I got started on it. Yeah, me and my procrastination. Not healthy but yeah…

Anyhow, that aside, it was a good week. A good SHORT week. Heh.

When you come over to my school staff room, and drop by my space, you’ll pass my neighbour’s place and think,”Teachers don’t really have that much to do, do they?”

But when you finally come to my place, you’ll see the organised mess I have. Ok, mostly clutter I accumulated in case I lose any important documents.

Difference between my colleague and me? She has her own classroom thus her clutter is stashed there. Heh.

This week, I started on the “Tropical Fruits” Unit with my big ones. I bought some fruits, placed them on one of my ‘hantaran’ trays and got them to bring one fruit each. So, we had a tray of fruits which we learned one by one. It was weird they don’t even know the names of some of the fruits. Buah bintang, cikgu! *slaps forehead*. Got the kids to even do up posters in groups and pretend to ‘sell’ a fruit providing info on the fruit to sell. It got hilarious. My kids, they love this sort of verbal presentations. In writing, we have LOTS to work on. I have a lot to work on.

One time I helped a kid open one of the mangosteens, it apparently was a rotten one. When I saw the brownish flesh, I literally threw it on the table. My kids squirmed but at the same time laughed when they saw me running away. *blush* Like I said, I freak at the sight of wormies. Urgh! However, after all that, we had a fruit party in the canteen! It was swell eating with the kids.

Oh well, will enjoy this weekend. For tomorrow, I’ll get Dy to help me as I bake some brownies and cookies. Been ages since I touched that oven. =) Aight, happy holiday, people!

Wanna know how PMS and the cramps that goes with it, affects a woman and her mood swings?

Yours truly is one subjec you can study.

Menses really suck. I know that when I get old and menses doesn’t come, I’d prolly worry but right now, menses brings only pain to me. It gets so bad that I sometimes can’t even be near a fan room without having  goosebumps, let alone in an air-conned room. And on days when I’ll be having a looOOoong day ahead, God knows what will happen to the kids and others when they push the wrong buttons. Currently, I’m waiting for lessons with the bigger ones. I went through with the small ones quite fine but the pain is building up.

And as for the breakdown I had this previous weekend, blame it on the hormonal changes leading up to this week’s period. Why am I talking about my period in the blogging world for all to see? One, it’s to make obvious that no baby is in the making.. so stop asking. Dy and I are taking it slow and if it happens, it happens but if it doesn’t, it means more US time and more time for stability.

Two, it’s for readers out there to understand what triggered my previous entry. How my mood is affected by my own internal body going-ons. It more often than not affects by the part of my brain which controls my emotions. So, there you go. Keh!

Aight, off to class! Thanks for the wishes and prayers. I’m actually fine now. Just that split moment of going berserk. *hugs to all* And have a nice day. (spoke too soon. it’s pouring. nice day to sleep in. bah!)

I felt like shit yesterday.

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I’m feeling much better after a good night’s sleep. What I’ve to learn now, is to really erase away things in my head. Problem with me is, I can cast things aside well, but then, casting aside ain’t good enough. One must be able to terminate it.

Cos’ I didn’t. And all that build-up finally decided to burst out yesterday.

After all that time alone, I finally got myself to sleep. Before that, I stayed up a while to watch him sleep. It was so peaceful and soothing to watch him sleep. I have to do this. I have to get a grip of myself. I’ve got to be strong, be the cheerful and couldn’t-care-less individual I once was. Growing up is such a pain. There’s just too many responsibilities.

I really need to learn that there’s no sense in keeping things in my head when all it does is cause me utter pain like yesterday. Suhainis, what you have advised to people, do it.

I think, sometimes we can help people but we overlook the help we have given. It’s time I take on some of my own advices.

I must stay strong. Pray for me.

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