I felt like shit yesterday.

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I’m feeling much better after a good night’s sleep. What I’ve to learn now, is to really erase away things in my head. Problem with me is, I can cast things aside well, but then, casting aside ain’t good enough. One must be able to terminate it.

Cos’ I didn’t. And all that build-up finally decided to burst out yesterday.

After all that time alone, I finally got myself to sleep. Before that, I stayed up a while to watch him sleep. It was so peaceful and soothing to watch him sleep. I have to do this. I have to get a grip of myself. I’ve got to be strong, be the cheerful and couldn’t-care-less individual I once was. Growing up is such a pain. There’s just too many responsibilities.

I really need to learn that there’s no sense in keeping things in my head when all it does is cause me utter pain like yesterday. Suhainis, what you have advised to people, do it.

I think, sometimes we can help people but we overlook the help we have given. It’s time I take on some of my own advices.

I must stay strong. Pray for me.

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