*Happy Anniversary, dearest…*

By Freek at 9:29 pm on Sunday, June 3, 2007

First years are somehow very important for most of us. When I completed my first year of teaching, me and the other probationers in my school, we were celebrated. They gave us certs and all to mark our First Year in teaching.

First year wedding anniversaries, are important for most newly-weds too. What it symbolises, differ from couple to couple and they have different ways of celebrating it.

For me and Dy, today is our First Year (Marriage) anniversary. I wouldn’t say wedding since our wedding was held 6 months after our solemnisation/marriage ceremony. Anyways, we had planned for this weekend early May. The plan was: Check into a hotel, dinner at our fave anniv/birthday restaurant, movie and privacy. But of course, we can only plan cos’ in the end, it’s the will of God that allows things to/to not happen.

Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought that I’d be spending my anniversary on a hospital bed. But God has His reasons and I concede to that.

Will update about my hospital stay when I get discharged,. For now, allow me to say something about my dearest. Oh and by the way, I AM still in hospital. Using their wireless network at the moment. *lol*

Being in hospital, away from him for these past 3 days have made me appreciate the times I had with him. It got me thinking of the times I was such a bitch to him. The times I would be pissed off by him and sleep with my back turned against him. All the times I was a meanie came fluttering back.

I missed my dearest during these past few days.(was admitted on Thursday night by the way). I missed ironing his clothes for him, getting him a drink after work, bathing together, watching tv together,  praying together, being hugged to sleep, talking to him while looking into his eyes… God help me but I’m crying as I type this and remembering all the good times I’ve had with him by my side. Remembering him. His smile which lifts me up when I’ve had a shitty day. His hugs which calms me down when I’m stressed up with work.

I know, 3 days isn’t that much of a deal to most people, but I guess, when you start living with someone who has been part of your life for almost 7 years, it gets hard when they are not around. On the night I was warded, yes, I cried. I cried because it was damn cold and the fever made me shiver under the 3 blankets I already had. I cried. I cried because the young female doctor poked me 7 frigging times to find vein and blood but to no avail and the 45-min ordeal tired me a lot. I cried. I cried because my family would not be around.  My dad, my mum, my bro, my sistz.

And I cried. Cried because I know the one person I would miss very, very much would not be around. Dy. Cried as he hugged me before he left.

Dy, I wanted to cry when I read this entry of yours. Cos’ it made me know that you too, feel the way I do.

Dy, I’m sorry we had to spend our anniversary this way. I am glad though that you loved the gift I gave you. I was happy to see how excited you were when I gave it to you. Remember how angry I was when you tried to download one of the episodes online and I said there is always a reason for everything? Yes, because I already bought the real thing, that you wanted so much, for you. And it warmed my heart that you liked it. *hugz*

Before I cry more and get my temperature up, causing me to be retained and thus means another day without you, let me end this entry in a while.

Dy, I can never thank God enough for giving you to me. The love you haven’t given to me, is overwhelming. And Dy, I may be stubborn but  I always have your words in mind. I promise to look after myself for the both of us. For the three of us.

Dear reader, please pray for me and my 6-weeks old pregnancy. It’s only 6-weeks and with the light bleeding I get when I walk around too much, it’s quite at risk. Thanks to my friends who took the time to visit me here. Thanks to Maya Cupcakes for the lovely anniversary cake.

Thanks to Dy, for being the best husband I could ever hope for.

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