*Am I..?

By Freek at 7:35 pm on Thursday, April 24, 2008

Of?late, I’ve heard people telling me that I look like?gonna pop any moment. Due to the sheer size of me, some people are worried and ‘terrified’ just by looking at me.

Yes. These days I?practically waddle about like a penguin,?move slower than a?sloth?and like I always say, climbing just 1 flight of steps is like climbing Everest.?I need to move out 5 minutes before the bell rings just to be IN time for classes.

There’s just not enough room anymore. Heh. Baby A is prolly growing bigger by the second and every moment, I feel stretched and my back hurts. I feel out of breath very often and I get real sharp taekwondo kicks to my?organs?every now and then. Don’t even get me started about my gastric area.

As I recall, I remember saying all these a few months back. Now that I think about it again, those times, are nothing compared to now. Back then, Baby A’s movements?felt like mere flutters. Heh. Ladies and gentlemen, I am starting to feel the real thing. Hey, hey. In case you get the wrong idea, I ain’t complaining here. Just describing what I’m going through, so that I can remember them when I read back my archives. Maybe for Baby B a few years down the road? *lol*

Which brings to mind.

Am I really ready for this?

Am I really ready to experience the pain which has been described as the most painful pain one can ever go through?

Am I ready to meet that tiny little human I have been carrying for 9 months?

Am I ready to be a mom?

Of course it’s a little to late to question things now. But to be honest, I am starting to feel afraid. Afraid that I am not strong enough to do this. Afraid that I’d freak out.

But then, I know God will give me strength and help me through this.

I know Dy will always be by my side, too. He and he WILL be there by my side when that day comes.

I know Baby A is counting on me to be strong as well.

I will try to be.

Ganbattei, Suhainis-san.

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Comment by ain

April 27, 2008 @ 3:19 pm

kakak i believe you can do it..
easy said kan kak but im sure la u can pull it thru..
i believe soo and trust me i’ve heard alot they say once you see ur baby’s face all ur pain will be swept away..

my doa’s with you kak and yes for baby A too.

oh oh baby A blum kluar u da bual2 pasal baby B???hmmmm

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